While cleaning up my desk area I found this quote I had saved:

" Volunteering can be an exciting, growing, enjoyable experience. It is truly gratifying to serve a cause, practice one's ideals, work with people, solve problems, see benefits, and know one had a hand in them." Harriet Naylor

I found this quote about a month after I started my Job here at the Utah House. It reminded me why I took the job and gave me a new perspective on service. I can only hope that my service this past year has made a difference.

B

A Chapter Ends....

With the year coming to an end so does my internship. Today is my last day here at the Utah House. I have loved almost...every minute of it. I'm sitting here at the now clean desk with all of my stuff packed away and I can't believe how quickly this year seemed to go. I hope that this next chapter is as fun and that I have a good job like this internship. I enjoyed the time here at the house with Jayne and Lori. I'm going to miss there motherly wisdom they shared with me this year. They are amazing to do all that they do as mothers and still work full time.

I still haven't scored a new job yet but my resume is out there. I'll keep you up on the latest happenings with that. Hopefully it won't be too long before I find a good job fit. Lori and Jayne have said that I'm welcome back at the Utah House so that's an option I'm keeping on the table if I don't find anything that looks too promising in the next week or two. I'm almost feeling though that it's time to move on to something new and hopefully more permanent.

I've learned a lot form this experience and I'm very grateful that I got to have this opportunity. Thank you everyone for all of your support.

I'm on the Hunt...AGAIN....

I'm sad that the year is already gone. My internship ends Next week. I can't believe it. It's literally flown by. Which brings me to the larger pressing issue at hand. Next week I will be unemployed...Tear.....Truly. The good thing is that I won't be working for free anymore. When I signed up for this lovely adventure I misunderstood how long the stipend would be for. I thought for sure I had until the end of the year or at least the end of November. Payments unfortunately ended on the 10th of November, but I still have to finish the 1700 hours to receive my scholarship money that will help pay off some of my student loans. Not all of them of course, but some.
Here in lies the problem. I have been looking for work and even found some interior design oriented job openings. But my labors are feeling fruitless. I haven't had a call back on any of them. At this point I'm desperate what do I do now? I know job hunting is a necessity, but I don't really like it. I need some stability people.
Count your blessings if you are employed in a stable situation. I hope to one day be as lucky.

p.s. keep your ear to the ground and if you hear of any openings that you think might suit me let me know.

Love ya,
B 

Back to the drawing Board

I told you I was green when it comes to blogging. the pages I've created aren't what I wanted. I wanted it to be like another blog. It would be more like an extension of my current blog or a blog inside a blog. A page is more like making a single page that you don't intend on changing too often. Like I said earlier that is not what I want. I need a blog inside of a blog. is that possible? How would I go about creating something like that? I'm going to keep pondering. If any of you have any solutions I would appreciate a comment.

Thanks,
B

Organizing

I'm becoming more blog savvy...which is great. It's what I've wanted to do and I'm not as green as a once was to it. If you notice I've made a few changes with the hope of being more organized and to be able to share more with my valiant reads. Even though there's only a few of you I appreciate the time you take to read my thoughts.

The changes; If you look above to where my title and description are you will notice just below that I have discovered how to add pages... Yeah!!! It really was an exciting moment when I figured it out.
I'm trying to stick to the ed theme, so I've added a cooked page(which is going to display my time in the kitchen) and a styled page(which I hope will give you a sense of my style and my journey in discovering my true self). There are sure to be more pages and blog updates added in the future to truly make my blog rock. I hope you all enjoy.

Thanks,
{b}

Nearly there...

It's finally starting to feel a bit more like fall. Well Utah fall which means snow and freezing temperatures. For the last 2 weeks we've had this interesting Indian summer effect. The warm weather has been nice just because I don't think I was quite ready to let go of the summer. Not that the summer was all that exciting this year. I'm just sad to see it go.
There is a plus to this colder weather though. I get to wear my cute winter clothes and put on all my layers. I love love love it....I'm especially excited for my new orange coat. I wore it to Church on Sunday and it didn't even match my outfit.

Definantly a Greenie

I've come to a harsh reality that I'm green when it comes to the whole blogging world. There are super bloggers out there and I might just want to aspire to be one of them. They're the ones that make money on their blogs and give things away and get people to pay attention.

How'd they do it?

Are there secrets to this realm of blogging that I need to uncover to take advantage of such things?

How do you become clever enough or creative enough to draw people in?

These are the answers I need people...

Endure it well

" Patience means active waiting and enduring. It means staying with something and doing all that we can-working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude. even when the desires of our hearts are delayed. Patience is not simply enduring; It is enduring well!"

I swiped this saying from my cousins blog I hope she doesn't mind but I thought it was good and made me ask the question: Am I enduring well?

I want to say for the most part I am, but there are those days when I ache to have the desire of my heart come to me right that second and it's hard in that moment to endure well. To continue hoping for the things that I don't yet have. To exercise the faith that if I endure well it will come to me eventually. When I have these moment's I usually eat my weight in ice cream or some pastry treat and then I remember who I am and where I came from. I'm a beloved child of my Heavenly Father and then the hope is re-lite and I know that I can endure well. I've been given so many things the least I can do is have patience for the things that I have not yet received.

What are your thoughts?

Here's to being optimistic....

At noon Monday I started with intentions to quickly clean my room. Ha....that was a completely optimistic Ideal. There has been nothing quick about it. As a matter of fact it's still not done. Granted I was interrupted by dinner with the family to Celebrate Canadian Thanksgiving. That's right we do what we can to keep Canada in our hearts and stomachs. Judi (the Canadian herself) has done that to us which is great. How could anyone possibly turn down an extra Thanksgiving dinner. Now back to the subject at hand. Dinner got in the way and then we had to run to the store for a few things, so by the time I got home I started going through all the Crap on my desk. That's right it's Crap with a capital C. I was just so tired... by 11:40 pm I found my way to a bed. Which I'm not convinced was a good choice because I didn't sleep very well. I think it was just knowing that the task I had started earlier that day was still looming unfinished. I had work today so it still sits in its pitiful state until I find my way home later tonight. Wish me LUCK. I'm still looking on the bright side though. It should only take me about an hour to finish up.

Google anyone?

Have you ever Googled your name? If you haven't you should. Just to say you did. Some people have more stuff on the internet than others. I have a bit more than I thought. The last I knew it was mostly old volleyball stats. Now I have comments that I've made on blogs and I even have information on work stuff. I even found out that my name was in the clipper(local Davis County newspaper) recently. Sweeeeetttt.....I know right.... It was an artical on the Botanical Center. There's another notch to count. Not that I haven't been in the paper before but it's still fun. Lol...

I challenge you all just to throw your name in Google and see what it comes up with. Good luck though some of you have a lot of competition. ;-)

It's no wonder why I haven't blogged in almost a month. Life has been so busy and I just haven't squeezed any time in for Blogging. Tisk...Tisk... I know.... It didn't help that I didn't have a computer at work for a little more than 2 weeks. It completely Crashed on me sad....Now it's back and things are almost back to normal with it except I don't have the adobe design suite and it won't read the printer, so no printing for me.
Okay lets review September. I've worked every Saturday now in what feels like forever. Saturdays usually aren't too bad except for the fact that I've had to work long Saturdays. Weddings, merit badge classes it's been the pits. I'm going to be finishing up my internship here in 2 months hopefully. I need a lot of hours though so cross your fingers. With this internship coming to a close I've been thinking a lot about what I'm going to do next. I really wish I could stay where I'm at, but it doesn't look too promising especially if I have to take it as an internship again. I'm barely staying above water as it is and I'll have a two month gap between paychecks. It makes me sad to think about though so I've been working hard on avoiding the whole thing. A lot of good that does though. I've just got to jump back in and start hunting again. Maybe I'll land something really good.

Ready to get my can on

I didn't realize that my last blog was in the middle of August...wow...Where has the summer gone. we're now at the tail end of the summer and it's canning season. That's right and I'm so excited to get my can on. ha ha ha...

I learned how to freeze corn over the Labor day weekend and the recipe that we used was amazing. It had butter in it and we roasted it in the oven before we froze it. Can I just say yum...
Now you may be asking why we chose to do corn first. It simple really here at the Botanical Center where I work they planted a ton of corn I mean a ton. They did it for the food pantry garden that they've been doing for the last two years. Here's the kicker They got everything harvested that they needed so the employees here got to reap the benefits of all the extra corn.
It was great. I invited my family down and we picked 5 huge luges of corn. My wrist hurt after cutting nearly half of it off the cob. When we were all done though I was so proud. I learned a new skill and it wasn't too bad.

Our tomatoes aren't quit to the point of where we have enough to start our salsa, but I'm looking forward to that day in the very near future. I have another plan to improve the salsa again and hopefully make it easier to make. Don't get me wrong I love our salsa especially straight out of the pot, but hopefully for lack of being able to readily find one particular ingredient(large cans of tomato paste) which I think can be substituted with something else(large cans of tomato sauce) and I think it might even change the flavor just enough to get us close as we'll ever get to Mel's salsa. Mel was the owner of an American Mexican restaurant that my family loved. Sadly as many other classics it was sold and now no longer exists. Tear...

That's why this is salsa thing is a passion of my family. We've been working for years to improve our salsa recipe to get it to where it is today. I plan on continuing the tradition and I won't stop until it's perfect.

love ya,
Britt

Be inspired....

I just got on an old volleyball friend's website. She does photography and she's amazing at it. The photographs are so original and outside the box. I've been inspired. I'm ready for something new and I'm going to make it happen for myself. I've been dragging my feet for the last couple of months and I'm officially done with that. I'm seriously going to figure out how to make this bag company of mine happen. I figure why not do something that I love doing. I like to create and I have all of these designs floating around in my head. I just need to get them out there and make my dream a reality. Thanks Jessi you've truly inspired me.
I've also found my photographer for my wedding when that day comes.
you should all seriously check out this blog.
http://www.hiyapapaya.com/blog

Ready or not the last FIVE are here

#16 I'm Coachable/Teachable

I listen and follow instructions. I figure that's the best way to learn how to do something. I don't really like to buck the system so much. show me how to do something and I'll do it to the best of my ability and I'll keep working at it until I get it right.

#17 The heart of an adventurer

I love adventures. I love exploring new things. discovering new worlds. Even though I get motion sickness I love going to far off destinations whether by plane, train, or automobile. Take me on an adventure.

#18 I have a passion for learning

I'm convinced you never lose the things you learn. It's all there it's just stored in a huge filing cabinet that's in your head and one day it will all be accessible to us again. I try to learn as much as I can. It doesn't have to be in a classroom situation either. I've learned so much here at my internship I'm sad for the day that I have to leave.

#19 I stand for something

Honestly I stand for a lot of things. I love the Gospel of Jesus Christ of Latter day saints and the principals and standards that it has. It has been a moral compass my whole life and now it's such a part of me that it defines and sustains me. It warms me like sunshine. It has molded me into the women I am today and will continue doing so as I continue learning and growing under the watchful care of my savior.

#20 I'm a child of God

Like everyone on this planet I am a child of my Heavenly Father who loves me. He cares so much for me and I'm proud and glad that I have a knowledge of this. He knows what is best for me, He sends me help when I need it, He helps mold and shape me through life experiences, He will never give me anything that I can't handle, and he will keep refining me until I have reached my full potential which he only knows. Having a knowledge of my loving Heavenly Father has blessed my life.

So it's been over a week since my last post. I've been super busy and every time I tried setting time aside for blogging my last 5pp (positive points) something came up. I think it's mostly because it's something that takes me like all day. I know it's only five, but I warned you about not being able to toot my own horn very well. I haven't really had that kind of time. You know to just sit and stare at the screen with a blank expression. Okay I've also been on vacation with no internet access. It was a lot of fun. We went to Bear Lake with the ward. I wake boarded which was a ton of fun. I about froze to death the first night we got there. It was so cold... I was stung by a bee, and I think I broke my finger all while playing volleyball with some very attractive boys. The broken finger's just a theory though. I have it in a home made splint so hopefully it will heal properly.

so I've been busy enough to not have the time to blog the last 5, but that's the next thing on the blogging agenda so keep your shorts on. with that I'm going to get on with it and I'll tell you more about the vacation adventures later.

eLevEn - fiFteEn

#11- I'm an artist

I love drawing and being creative. I would rather create my own drawing than color in the lines. I owe my mother for that mostly. She would never buy us coloring books or those paint by numbers things. It was always blank computer paper and pencils(I'm sure it was also cheaper). It defiantly stimulated my creativity and for that I am very grateful for.

#12- I'm a determined hardworking individual

I really think I willed myself to be tall. I know you're thinking whatever it's all genetics but I really think I did have something to do with my height. I wanted to be a really good volleyball player and with that you have to be tall. I worked hard to be a good player. I also wanted to be an artist so I worked really hard at That too. If I'm offered a challenge or if someone says I can't do something you better believe I'm going to do my best to prove them wrong.

#13- I'm Smart?

For the longest time I didn't really believe this. I was always just average doing enough just to get by in school. I never noticed that I didn't really have to work that hard to get a passing grade. I really love learning and apparently I learned something cause I made it through college and I now have a bachelor's degree. It's pretty sweet.

#14- I love showing Affection

Whether it's a hug or a letter. I really like showing people that I care about them. I like letting them know when they're important to me. My whole family is like that. We love to be loved and we love showing it. I love cuddling it's great.

#15- I'm open to new experiences

I actually like change. I love experiencing new things. It kind of keeps life fresh when your try new things. New experiences help you develop new talents too. It's just so fun. I have a few things I've been wanting to try for sometime and I think it might just be time for a change and some new experiences.

Six Thru Ten

#6 I'm funny

Now I'm not trying to toot my own horn or anything. I just have a good sense of humor. Of course I owe a lot of credit to my funny friends that help nurture my own humor. Thanks Kat I owe one for showing me the ropes of how and when to be funny. If you ask my roommate I have some random faces that I pull at random times and some of them are apparently funny. I like my quirkiness.

#7 I'm tall

I love being tall. I'm 5'10" and I love every inch. I play volleyball so it's a huge advantage. I also still love to wear heels cause they make my legs look amazing. It might be a problem for future suitors, but I'm willing to compromise as long as they love me. Being tall is good for when somethings on the top shelf of a cupboard. It also means that I have really long legs and arms which is a really nice advantage as well.

#8 I'm a creative problem solver

I went to school for Interior Design and I have more fully developed my creativity and my problem solving skills with my now accomplished degree. who knew that designing is problem solving I didn't until one of my Professors pointed it out. I good at it I must say especially when it comes to colors and coordinating furniture. If you have any design questions feel free to ask me. I'll help you out if the price is right.

#9 I'm an Idea generator

And the light came on. such bright ideas. I love having ideas and making them work out especially. this one actually goes right along with the problem solving one before it. I love letting the ideas flow from what I'm going to make for dinner to the title of my new design company. It could work right just confidence. I have all these ideas now I just need to make them truly exist.
I love working with ideas inside and outside the box. Cause sometimes you have to think outside the box to create and inside.

#10 I'm a good secret keeper

Shhhhh....it's a secret.

5 of 20

#1 I really like Cooking and I'm fortunately pretty good at it.

I'm always looking for new recipes to try and I like tweaking recipes that I already know and making them better. I tend to spoil my roommate right now cause she's the only one around to eat it. She gives me good reviews you can even ask her. We actually cook together most of the time and she's a pretty good cook herself. I hope that whomever picks me for eternity likes food.

#2 I like my hair.

I really like running my fingers through my own sleek locks of hair. I very rarely if ever rat and hairspray the bejeesus out of it(maybe for Halloween). I do occasionally straighten or curl my hair just to change it up a bit. I just like to keep it simple though. I love that in the summer time it takes on a golden glow all by itself. All I have to do is step out into the sun and it creates it's own highlights.

#3 My eyes are awesome.

They change color. sweet huh.... No contacts required. Depending on what I wear determines what my eyes look like. I can have really blue sharp eyes one day and the next vibrant green. I love it. A little touch of make up and my eyes really pop.

#4 I like my hands and feet...

Now here me out... They just have really good proportion. I don't have any alien toes and all of my toenails are still attached. My hands and feet are very strong and yet still feminine (no man hands here folks). I think the strength comes from all the years of athletics and hard labor in my grandpas orchard. I have long fingers and toes that help contribute to the beautiful feminine line. I have really good natural fingernails so I don't have to mess with all those fake acrylic things. Hopefully you have a good idea now of why I like my hands and feet. If not ask me some time and I'll try and explain it to you.

#5 I'm good with color

I love color... I love sharing it and mixing it and enjoying all the color around me. I'm generally pretty good at telling if colors are going to mix well together and I like to put colors together and have people fall in love with the color scheme. I like taking chances with color if it doesn't work oh well... but it usually does ;-)

20 Positive Things About Me?

Okay so here's the deal. Our relief society is doing a road to discipleship program and one of the goals we can choose is to make a list of 20 positive things about yourself. I have this problem of not being able to toot my own horn very well, so of course trying to make my life harder I'm going to attempt it. I don't really know what some positive things are, but I'm going to try to do it. Maybe if I get into the groove of writing it will be easier than I think. I'm really struggling thinking of things though.

It's been a crazy...lazy....summer....

I can't believe we are already at the end of July. Wow...where has the time gone? I wish I could say I've been on some exotic adventure, but alas I have not. I've been here most of the summer. I made a trip to Oregon with my roommate Hannah for her family reunion. I'd been complaining about how I needed a vacation so she talked me into going. I didn't mind it, but it was not really a vacation in my eyes. When I think vacation it's chilling somewhere whether it's on a beach or in the mountains. It's time to unwind and meditate. I haven't had that for so long I'm just aching to get out of Dodge. I hope that it will come sometime soon.
We have done some cool stuff this summer like parades, rodeos, and fireworks multiple weekends. Sometimes I just feel like I need to stop and smell the roses and figure out my next move. I hope that I can figure something out. I need a day off that I don't have any crazy keep me busy plans where I can just decompress. I miss the days of kidhood where summer was really a break and we would laze around for days at a time (minus cherry season of course). What I wouldn't give for a week like that.

Sick...and Tired....

I was awakened Monday morning by a terrible sore throat. It felt like someone was stabbing my throat with a knife...Ouch... What was it? I was afraid it was strep and going to work would just get everyone else sick. I had to go to the doctor for this one. Bummer... and a little nerve racking. Using my own insurance card and going to the doctor by myself is not something I have done. I called and made an appointment after some coaxing by my roommate Hannah. Who I'm sure was just like will you just do it already you big baby. lol... and I was. I'm sorry I'm 27 and I don't get sick that often so going to a doctor doesn't happen that often.
When I got to the doctor's office I was greeted by the secretary and office manager that had a whole butt load of paperwork for me to fill out. I was informed that I hadn't been in since 2004. Which is a good thing right?
Doing paperwork isn't fun even when your not sick let alone when you can't swallow for fear that your throat is going to tear into two. I finally got into the doc's office. the nurse took a swab of my throat the Dr. Batum came in and had breath for him a few hundred times he looked at the back of my throat and in my ears and then was off and back within like 5 min. I thought that was pretty quick considering that most of the time your left sitting for like 25 min. for the doctor to even find his way to you. I'm not even sure what I have really he never gave me the diagnoses. he just said your contagious for the next 24 hours and I'm writing you a prescription here's some nose spray. WHAT?!? I hate nose spray...yuck I have to stick something up my nose... I think I'm going to throw up ( I really almost did).
After leaving the doc's office I exposed a lot of people to whatever I had. All I had was a sore throat though so I decided to be productive. I stopped and got gas on my way home because it was pretty cheap in Bountiful. Then I decided now was as good a time as any to renew my license since it was 2 months late. I mean why not???? Ha ha the whole Drivers license division is going to get sick ha ha suckers. Then I had to pick up my medicine which was full price because my insurance sucks. gotta love deductibles. I got home finally around 5 and just wanted to die but I needed to take some medicine and then I needed to go to the store and get some juice and some decongestant.
Bah... great I have to miss another day of work. I didn't really feel that sick just a sore throat. Although the doctor wanted to know if I had been coughing a lot. No... not a cough or a stuffy nose just a sore throat!!! Now I was taking all of this medicine some of which I felt wasn't necessary(like the nose spray). I don't have a stuffy nose... why do I need nose spray?
I ended up being grateful for not being able to go into work on Tuesday. I didn't feel any better in fact I felt worse. It was all that medicine... it made me worse before I started getting better. I felt like I got hit by a truck. Crap...I missed another day of work but I was mending slowly. I got out of bed on Wednesday and needed to get out of the house. I couldn't spend another day inside. a good sign that I was mending. I took a trip to one of my favorite places. The Bountiful Temple and then I stopped and saw my niece and sister in law. I loved it. I knew for sure that I was going to be back at work today and doing well. I feel much better now and even the gross nose spray that I still have to do for one more day is helping.
Being sick has thrown my schedule way off though. I had some great plans that were dashed by a small sore throat. Hopefully it won't effect anything to long term. I still want my bicycle. Running unfortunately has been put off for another week.

Running Update

Ha ha...I thought I'd give you an update on how my training's been going. It's not going anywhere....lol... I haven't been running more than once a week if that for about 4 weeks now. I need to run I know it would be good for me, but try to talk myself into it is another thing. I like running it clears my mind. It's really finding the time to go running. I have time to go in the morning if I want to get my butt out of bed. I like my bed especially in the morning when I'm wrapped in my warm blankets and laying on my squashy pillow. I don't want to move. I tried this morning to get out of bed. I didn't get too far... I got as far as stretching looking at my alarm thinking if Meg gets up then I'll get up. I reluctantly turned on my light on my bed stand and pulled my blanket off....I waited for about 10 minutes. I didn't hear Meg get up and I started getting a chill so I turned my light back off and pulled my blanket back up around me and slept for another 2 1/2 hours before I had to be to work.
I should have just done it though. Just get my big butt out of bed and go for a run it would have woken me up enough to make it through the day and then I wouldn't feel like i weigh hundreds of pounds more than I do.
Oh... well here's to doing better tomorrow.

I want to tell you something.....JK....I can't.....

grrrr..... I hate when someone says they have something to tell you and they completely skirt around the entire issue. They draw you in by saying I need to tell you something and then their like well I can't really tell you but I had to say something because your important to me and I really want to tell you deep down, but I just can't....So don't the dangle the freakin' carrot. BAH....is all I have to say. It's better off if you don't even put it out there instead of saying I want to tell you but I can't I hope you understand.

How would it be?...

I've had the opportunity for the last week to sleep on a nice big mattress. It's been amazing and I'm going to be sad when I have to give it up. It has to be done because I'm sure my new roomie would like her bed back when she moves in.
I therefore have a decision to make. Do I buy a bicycle which I have wanted for a long time and wait on the bed or do I kick my 17 year old bed to the curb and buy a new big bed? I wish with all my heart I could do both at the same time. I do know however that I'm still strongly leaning toward the bicycle because I have a plan for said bicycle. My plan is to ride to work instead of driving everyday therefore saving money and the planet. Then I could take that money not being spent on gas to save for a new bed. Wow... it seems I have the clear and smart choice in front of me. Now if it only works out that way.

I think it's love...

It's a small thing really, but I'm loving my Job. It's time consuming but so much fun. We're really starting to pick up and I love it... my days are filled with teaching and creating with a little bit of office work. Awesome right. I get to be outside a lot and we're all pretty relaxed around here so we laugh and joke a lot. I'm going to miss my internship when it ends here in November. When I think about it it makes me sad because I know that I have so much to offer and who doesn't want to work somewhere that they love the people and the work. I'm still getting into the swing of things and the summer isn't even upon us yet. I don't know if I'll have a break down, but everyone is waiting for it. I'll keep you updated on that status.
I love it and I love what the Utah House teaches. I can't wait... summer is going to be amazing :-)
love it love it love it...

p.s. I'm even doing my part to help the environment and I will be purchasing a bicycle to ride to work. Yeah!!!!! I've wanted a bicycle for a long time.

Don't blink you might miss it.

I feel like someone's hit the fast forward button on my life. Time seems to be sailing by without me realizing that time has passed. My days have begun to run together and I don't know how I got to the middle of April without even blinking an Eye.
A lot has happened in just a few a few weeks. The season changes and it's like things come to life. here at work things are really starting to pick up and I love it. I love being out in the sunshine and warm air. I think it's very therapeutic for me to be outside in the sun. I'm just happier when I leave work after working out in the sun. I think that working in an office the rest of my life is not for me I need to be out in the fresh air and sunshine. I love it just living it breathing it all in is amazing. With work picking up though I don't have much time to jump on and blog as much and we're in a transition at my house so we don't have internet at my place right now. It makes blogging a little difficult. At least I don't have to worry about getting class work done without the internet. I think it's amazing how much we rely on this technology now and don't even think twice about using it. What an amazing tool.
Our spring celebration for work was yesterday and it went well. Other than I went non-stop from about 9 am to 8pm. I crashed when I got home even ask my roommate she'll testify to my unwillingness to even go take a shower and I was smelly.....
All of the hard work paid off though and it was a success. I took some pictures of my projects and I will post them as soon as I get my import cord back from my sister.
I apologize for not having pictures of my life on here yet. I'll work on it though. I just struggle with the whole taking pictures thing. It's another goal of mine to improve.

Just call me Auntie Beegee...

Hey peeps... I know its been a while but I'm trying to keep my filter up so I'm only trying to share with you what I feel is important. Most of the time I just talk myself out of writing cause I'm always like that's not important enough....blah blah blah...
Anyway onto the important news. As of Friday March 26, 2010 I have a niece She was 6lbs. 14oz. and was 20 inches long. Her name is Kathrine Marie Webster and she is Beautiful. Honestly the most beautiful baby I've ever seen. Not to offend any of you already parents out there. I'm sure your babies were cute, but my little munchkin is gorgeous. I'm not just saying that because I'm bias either. She came so fast that she didn't even have a weird shape to her head. Her baby smell is simply intoxicating I wish I could breath it in all day. I was able to see her every day this weekend which was great. This beautiful little life sat nestled in my arms. If only she could talk I'm sure she would have a world to tell us. She looked like she wanted to talk to me a couple of times. I just thought I was imagining things until my mom told me she thought she was trying to talk to her and Kort too. I can't wait to spend more time with her.
I can't wait for the day when I will have my own children nestled in my arms breathing in their sweet smell and knowing the duty I have to protect, teach, and remind them of their mission here on the earth. How glorious that day will be. I've been so blessed to have so much time to prepare and gain a sure testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ. I'm sure it's because I need to be prepared to raise the noble and great ones. So I will continue striving to live the Gospel and preparing for the day that I get to start my own eternal family.

I had an opportunity to see and reflect upon the circle of life. My niece came into this world on Friday morning and my good friend Hannah's Grandpa died on Saturday afternoon. He hadn't been doing very well for a couple of months and has gradually been going downhill for about two weeks so we knew it was coming but that doesn't always make it easier. It's hard seeing loved ones pass away especially when your so close to them. Like Hannah was with her grandpa. My heart goes out to Hannah and her family.
I'm so blessed to have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in my life and the knowledge that it has given me of eternal life. I'm grateful for the plan of salvation and the promise that we have of being with our loved ones again as we strive to live worthily. I know that Grandpa Lewis was welcomed on the other side with open arms by his loved ones that passed before him and that he will do the same for the ones he left behind when their day comes. If he's anything like my great grandparents which I'm sure he is. He's already busy readying the people and the kingdom for the day that the Savior comes again. What a beautiful thought.

Running....

I think I'm going to run a half Marathon in August. Sounds fun huh... I need to see how much I like running really, so I figured why not just bite the bullet and see if I like to run by training for a marathon. wish me luck it's part of my something new theme this year. Meg's running it too so I think between the 2 of us we can keep each other motivated and on track.

ZzzzZzzzZzzz..........WAKE UP!

I haven't been taking very good care of myself lately....I never sleep...And it's not that I don't want to. It's that I just don't have the motivation to go down to my room and go to bed. I know that I should and that I would just feel better about myself and I'd get more stuff done in the day. I just really struggle with making myself go to bed. Sometimes I envy those people that can just do it. I don't know if they've just always had that gift or if it's some kind of developed willpower that they have. I need some of it whatever it is...please send it my way. I really wish there were more hours in the day as well. I feel like I get nothing done most of the time. It's like time passes quicker and quicker with each year.
I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning too and it stinks. I could get so much more done if I could wake up like 3 hours earlier than I do. Blah....I want too I do. I even have my alarm set to get me out of bed by 6am so I can get my work out on before work. Hasn't happened yet. What is wrong with me? Why can I not get out of bed?

Turning Green...

Happy St. Patrick's Day.... how great is this holiday. You learn about leprechauns and pot's of gold when you're a kid. You don't have to worry about buying gifts for everyone and you get to pinch people if they're not wearing green. Green is such a nice spring color:-)
Now all they need to do is make it a national holiday so that we can have the day off. That would be sweet. It's my favorite holiday anyway why not make it that much better. I know you're thinking why in the heck do you like this of all holiday's is the best? I'll tell you why. First It's the closest to my birthday, second it's kind of obscure. Really not everyone is scrambling for it to make their top 5 list, heck not even their top 10 list. It's just kind of out there really. who made up the whole you get pinched for not wearing green thing? I just love it....Ha ha ha..... Now all I need is a pot of gold.
Maybe they can turn it into a holiday about going green. We could all have the day off so you reduce car emissions and We could encourage people to go outside and do something. We could all turn our lights out early or turn off the water. I think we should do something here at The Utah House. we could have some green demonstrations and we could decorate or something. It would have be so cool. Just thought I'd share a weird tidbit of information about me:-)

Happy Birthday to Me.....

Yesterday was my Birthday....Yeah!!! Birthdays are fun despite what my roommate says about them and how they just get worse... Whatever.... I like my birthday thank you very much. She's going to turn 30 this year and is already freaking out about it. I figure there's no point in being sad about getting older because no one can stop it. It's a natural part of life right? So you might as well look at the bright side of things.
Here are some things I do to stay optomistic, I surround myself with friends and family, I reflect upon the things I'm grateful for, I like to think about all the things I've done in the past year and the growth I've gone through. Sometimes I try and think of all of the things I want to achieve in the next year. Although sometimes that gets a bit overwhelming.
I'm not trying to say that my birthdays are always perfect because they're not. Sometimes I still cry over spilled milk but in the end I'm grateful for another year of life and learning.

Is a dollar in quarters less desirable than paper money...

La La La....I'm short on money and there's not much I can do about it...I'm considering finding a place that I can donate some plasma. That will bring in a few extra dollars and maybe that will help me get some supplies that I need for my business. I really should get that started. I've been planning the beginning for so long now. I was going to work on my business plan all last week. That didn't happen I wonder why that is?
I just have a hard time seeing it begin because I don't know where to get the funds to get it started. Maybe I should start a fundraiser called help Brittnee start her business all it takes is just 1 dollar. Ha ha.... yeah that's like 1 dollar from a million people. That might take awhile, but it could be doable. I don't think I know that many people though. Maybe I should ask for a dollar in quarters? are they less desirable than paper money? Does anyone know?
I just need to hold on...somethings gotta give...right?

I don't have a very good filter....

I'm still here I promise....It's been a few days I just couldn't think of anything to write on Wednesday that was nice. Not after that purge session that I had on Tuesday. Then I started worrying because apparently I don't have a very good filter when I'm sharing things and I don't really consider the ramifications of said unfiltered propaganda. I might just get myself in trouble or outcast. You have to understand though when I write I just get going and it's hard to stop. I don't want to tell you just part of my experience I want to share all of it with you. That's the part though that gets pretty sticky I don't take into account that I have an audience whether it's big or small. I apologize if I have offended anyone thus far and I will try to filter better in the future.

a soap box I have...

Since Sunday I've been wonder what makes me different than other girls. I only say this because I had the opportunity to see some "girls" in action. I think this might be why I don't date much? Let me know what you think. We had dinner right...instead of just eating and keeping their mouths shut they had to bring up weight and how they were trying to cut back. The retarded thing was that all three of these girls are rails. That's right nothing but bone. Grrr...just thinking about it makes me mad. Then after their bird size portion they mention how full they are and how they couldn't eat another bite for fear of exploding. Seriously?!? Just eat the stupid food and run a few extra miles tomorrow. I'm sure if there was a good wind they'd still blow away. I really wonder the mental health of these girls sometimes. Don't get me wrong I still worry about that stuff but, at a guys house in the middle of dinner is the last place I'm going to bring something like that up.I mean maybe I should talk about every single calorie like it's my worst enemy maybe guys like that. What do you think?

what a weekend

I think I need a weekend to make up from this weekend. I didn't stop all weekend it was crazy. Friday I even took a half day off of work to try and make it so it wasn't so crazy. I really had a good time it was just busy. I just didn't have time to catch up on sleep like i wanted to. Friday my roommate Tina and I went shopping and we ended up getting supplies to paint. It was great I haven't painted in a really long time. It' s still a work in progress but when I'm done I'll take a picture and post it for all of you to see my mess lol. We were also putting together a date block for my friend Carlee that's getting married in a few weeks. It was fun and what I think was a fabulous idea I just wouldn't do it that late at night again. I was so tired....It' s harder now that I'm older to go to bed really late and then get up early for work and other things.
The midnight Walmart run... there were some things that we needed to get for Car's gift so we made a Walmart run even though we were exhausted. It all went well other than we wandered from one end of the store to the other just because we weren't thinking clearly. Then came the scary part as we were walking to the car there were two other cars parked right next to Tina's. and they had their music pumping the black mustang had his trunk open. as we approached and the owner of the car finally saw us he slipped the stash in his pocket. I hurried and looked away. I was just thinking "I didn't see anything act natural and they won't shoot us or something." As soon as we got in the car I was like "Tina get in and lets get out of here as fast as we can ." Yes I was a bad citizen. we were so worried about getting away from there and shocked that we had just witnessed a drug deal at the Layton Walmart. You know it happens in your town but it was right there 2 feet from my friends car. The moron in the other car was just continuing his story about how he out smarted the cops and they didn't catch him with his stash. Really I was so dumb founded and I didn't call the Popo what the heck is wrong with me? I vowed however if I ever find myself in that situation again I will call the police. I really felt violated. I want to feel safe in my community. I guess that's what you get with a Walmart though...trash...in every sense of the word. It's a great way to start out the weekend don't you think?
Saturday morning we got up and finally made it to Carlee's shower late because I had no idea my friend Melissa had moved back home. We weren't the last one's though Tara saved us from claiming that title. I love my friend Tina I do. She just marches to the beat of her own drum so I can't ever expect to get anywhere on time with her. We really did think that we'd make it though and we would have if Melissa was still living in her old place. After the Bridal Shower I had just enough time to go home grab some grub and head over to my grandma's for my Sister in laws baby shower.
Yes that's right my brother Ty and his wife will be the proud parents of the first Grandchild/niece in my Family. I'm excited to experience it. I'll be able to be the cool aunt. which is kind of hard to wrap my mind around right now. I'm so baby hunger right now it's not even funny, but that could just be the hormones running rampant through my body right now.
It was really good to see my aunts they're awesome. They try and take care of us and just want to see us happy and that means married. I cried but like I said earlier hormones. It's hard to be single but really right now in my life I really am happy I have an opportunity to go to the Temple at least once a week and feel peace and I have hope that everything else will come as long as I am faithful. I ended up staying at the shower longer than I had planned and then made Tina all upset because we didn't have time to go shopping for a dress for the Black and White ward party we were having that night. I'm sorry I can't do everything. It makes me sad that we can't just extend some days and fit more stuff in. I had about an hour before I had to start thinking about getting ready for the party and that entire time I tried to convince Tina to come and be social with me. She wouldn't though because she didn't have a fancy dress. I told her just to wear a church dress, but heaven forbid she was the only one in church clothes. Which was bunk...by the way... I told her I was wearing church clothes and that there were probably plenty of people wearing church clothes. It just wasn't good enough for her though. I was done talking at that point if she didn't want to come and socialize I wasn't going to make her. I told her however that she couldn't complain to me or around me that she had no social life. She had a perfectly good opportunity to come a be social. It hurts my heart that I can't just wave a magic wand or twitch my nose and help my friends dreams come true. I can't help them very much if they don't try and help themselves.
We had a blast at the party though. It was so fun we ended up dancing and then we were invited to go to a movie with a big group. which I owe meg for. We went and saw the new Alice in Wonderland from Disney. It was really good which I was surprised by because the trailers just make it look like it's going to be a crazy movie that has no rhyme or reason. It was kind of fun going to a movie all dressed up;-)
Sunday was pretty good as Sunday's always are. It was fast and testimony meeting and for some reason I can't stop myself from sharing my testimony. I try to share what I'm feeling at the time so just pieces of my testimony. If I were to share everything It would take all day. I try to keep it simple and short so other people have a chance to share. I shared my thoughts about the Holy Ghost and how special it is to me. I hope it made sense cause I had no idea what I was going to say bah....it could have just been a jumbled mess of word salad for all I know and remember. I could feel it though and I need to learn to speak what I feel. I was invited to dinner at my friend Ira's house after the fireside. The fireside was amazing as they usually are. Meg came with me to dinner and it was a lot of fun. I made bread sticks and cookies and he made frozen lasagna(what a boy thing). there was a good group of people there and it was great to just talk and develop friendships. I said that maybe we'd have them over in a few weeks for dinner kind of make it a tradition.
What a weekend!!!!! it was great just to have an opportunity to have so many wonderful experiences minus the drug deal. Meg said that this was the most fun she had had in like a year and a half. It was the most fun I had had in a long time as well. I'm grateful for all the experiences and friendships that i have gained and I look forward to continuing to develop those friendships. My life is so different then it was even 6 months ago and I'm so grateful for that.

A Blog In Progress

I'm working on getting things put together so that I actually like the layout of my blog. I also think I'm going to change the name. Something New is just kinda...I don't know boring like my blog is right now. I'll get the hang of things eventually and then we'll be in business. Since I don't really know what I'm doing and I'm trying to get the hang of things this is my something new. I might just end up spewing word vomit on this thing but I figure its fine because it's mine and it's kinda fun.
I'd like to give a shout out to my grade school buddy Tyler and wish him a happy birthday. I only remember that it's his birthday because mine is exactly 10 days later. It's funny the things you remember from way back when. I'll be turning 27 in t-minus 10 days woot... woot... :-) wow....how the time flys when your having fun. lol...

Why Blog?

Okay...so the reason I'm starting this blog really is to start something new Hence the title...lol... really I need a place to put and hopefully organize my thoughts and a place to bounce ideas off of other people.
There are a lot of things that I'm ready to do and a lot of things that I want to try, so I thought why not share my crazy attempt at making a newish me with all of you.